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im using Blogspot instead.

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much appreciated♥

i wish that the world appreciated stuff .

i wish that people would know how i feel.. ;

i wish for my younger life times..

where i didnt have to think , put up with so many things..

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my sister [:

todays weather was sunny , clear blue sky , and thought my day would be cheerful like the weather. i got yelled at straight after i put on my shoes to leave the house , i didnt want to argue back , and so i decided to leave without a word. the bus ride was tiring , i kept thinking and daydreaming randomly i guess i was tired , or maybe im just thinking about things way to much; so anyways i had breakky at garbo , and then walked to school. by myself. krystal was with me , but then she left me for her bofyriend.. and so yeaas. clan was funny.. wells this guy in my clan his name is curtis and his really.. yeah you knows rofl . and like people were telling the teacher what he has done , like poked a guys girlfriend , and nearly got smashed and he was like yelling hardkore saying , ” i didnt do it ! i didnt , i didnt hey i didnt ! “ because everybody was like ” yeahs you did curtis ! ” and then he got yelled at by the teacher , the argument went on forever , until the bell went for first period. i had mathsmathsmaths ! it was alright , time went pretty fast . well not really but like yeah you knows , hahas ; brian is such a funny guy. he never shuts up

so anywayys , morning tea was shit. promises broken.. stuff it , im not gonna bother anymoree ; iws was alright ; also time went fast, we`re starting on our assignment (: and mine is pretty easy because its on my own country. so it`ll be easy for me -giggles- uhmmms anyways , art was pretty fun O: ! we like played with clay.. but unfortunately it got kinda itchy D: ! fuckfuckfuck but nehs , i still played with it hahas ! it was so fun ! O: the guys were like making penis’s i was like – shakes head - lunch time was alright . demi kept trying to dack me ! , that faggot that i love LOL . hpe was fun , it was our last lesson on volleyball </3 and so we played game of volleyball (: and talita is such a funny girl hahaha. heisolo wasnt at hpe today , it would of been funner with her around (U)

cst was so boring ! O= we didnt even really start anything hahas , we wernt even logged on , on our computers ROFL and then we had a practice lock down. and then we went to the oval to get our names marked off and stuff. and then we got dismissed early , like ..

holyfuck .. its so unusual.

we got dismissed at like 2:45pm today . hahas 15mins early yayarhs (H) and so i walked up to garbo with , demi / rachel ; aahs my garbo time wasnt that good. at the start , i went downstairs to eat today sushiiiii (L) yumyum. and then went into kmart with demi (: . omfg my boyfriend and jonathan and adam like played a prank on me , saying this dude was at garbo , i was shit scared and ran into kmart HAHA and then i got ice`cream ! [: , that kept fucking dripping . -rages- i caught the 4`oclock bus today , with courtney baby & others . i havent for a while , i miss it alot (L) courtney is very good on ddr on psp ! O= she’s like pro as, like shes pro at ddr in reality [: i love you courtney baby [: -giggles- i got home at like 4:40 today , and came online .

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and that was basically my whole day (: .

and im missing my boyfriend ..

and i get to see raya&penny tomorrows – cheers- YAYURH (L)

luquie.

when the world stops smiling , and only rains ..

when the sky is completely grey .. and dreadful ; whats the causes of this all happeing..

its maybe the natural , or the sense of changes..

cause when everything changes , you seem to notice and want it to change back ,

when you can see already that its impossible.

why does life change , why does everything has to be all messed up.

why is family , a stranger.?

why are friends drifting apart , and only comes to you when they

want something.

are you just the person , who only is important ; when they need or want something ?

unimportant at all..

and when the most important person ..

is different.

you seem like you dont wanna live.

im sorry.

it started at 3 , when i had to wake myself up from my sleep to see what was wrong with my mum , she was extremely sick.. and i had to look after her since then. my sister was also crying , crying like she needed something , but i didnt know what . i actually didnt know what to do all at. since everything happened in one flick , it was to sudden , too soon ; i didn`t know waht to do , or how to react to the situation that was commencing at that time. i then didnt get any sleep at all. i also didnt go to school today , i didnt have the strength to go school , and plus ; my mum and sister couldnt stay alone , since my mums boyfriend was at work ;

when he came back from work , we took my mum to the hospital. i was there for awhile , waiting to see if my mum is ohkay , and also looking after my sister. she didnt cry at all . which made everything easier that i imagined. my day wasnt great . it was super cold. and i felt like i was dying . i felt the coldness rush into my skin, i felt like raging .. but then again i didnt want to rage because i was at a hospital. and so gg to me T___T ” . so anyways , i got home at like 4:30 ? ; and tried to get some sleep .. when it was seriously impossible. i had to much on my mind. and so i didnt sleep but sat around , trying to find something to do. aaaaaah. so fucking lame… i couldnt get my boyfriend out of my mind , and also my mum .. =( i miss my boyfriend alot..

even when it rains , it makes me miss him more babe i miss you terribly..(U)

uhmms. that was about it , that was my whole day .. hopefully my mother gets better ,  and hopefully it doesnt rain tomorrows , i hate going to schol when it rains , because i end up getting super wet and soaked. aaaaaaaah. gg to me.. </3

get well mummy (L)

ahoys ! i woke up at like , 8:20 today when i was ment to wake up at like 8:00 . 20mins of extra sleep. (Y) . i got ready , and walked out to the bustop at like 8:55am . and then i called up angela because she texted me to cal her , i did alot of calling people today (: . hahas , and then i realised that i didnt have my ipod with me , i then raged and ran my way back to my house , ! tiring work. thinking if i ran , i would make it in time for the bus.. i then waited for another 30mins , thinking i missed the bus.. and then realised that , the bus that was ment to come at 9:00 came at 9:30 with the other bus , which was the 9:30 bus , confusing ? lols well yeahs. the bus ride was alright , i saw my cousin on the bus (: . he was also going out today , i was like a loner .. at sunnybanks , until jennifer and josha xu came [: . then joshua went to MT -laughs- like all asian guys do. so anyways . chung and stuff came around like 11:10 ? and then i went walking around with chung (: also took pictures.

and we went walking around , went to cotton on , eb games etc. then went back to funhouse to meet my boyfriend , jonathan and demi (: .  i was also ddring with demi , that pro fag♥ and then had to leave sunnybanks , because of my mum ; i swear shes like stalking me.. and then i found out that she was @ sunnybank , and so i was like so lucky i went city. otherwise i would of got caught. (U) . then gg to me T_T . so anyways city was extremely boring , no one was at tops ! like no`one. we met up with ming & angela and then went pool. we were basically there the whole fucking time. i was playing pool (: and watched my boyfriend and godbrother play pool -giggles- my boyfriends adorable♥ i love him :] . and omfg i also saw r-r-r-racheeeeeeel . that sexy lady . faah i swear she has the cutest smile ! -evils- im so jealous , i want her smile ! and then we bused it back to garbo .

and my boyfrend was hugging me -giggles- his so fucking warm.. imisshim. i had fun with my boyfriend (: !♥ it was a bery greatful time with hims -smiles- i caught the bus at 5:07 and then my boyfriend and jonanthan left. my friend natasha came to visit (: ! . and we took webcam pictures -giggles- also with her sister (:

i havent seen them in ages , and so it was really good to see them agains (: . they look so different , well not really but her little sisters do hahas . and that was basically my whole day (; i had a great day (: . because i was with my boyfriend (:  and now i miss him .. school tomorrows (U) ! . and omfg .. its been raining all fucking day ! -rages-

my sister on the left , natashas sister on the right. [:

( omfg my sisters posing )

i miss my boyfriend terribly.. </3

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hello my dearest readers (: . how are you all today ? , i’ve been pretty hyped up since the moment i woke up (: , though i only had 1 hour of beauty sleep. omg how did i do that ? , i dont know , im just skillful . so anyways . i woke up without feeling tired. actually woke up 4minutes earlier than the usual late time wake up , i feel so fucking proud ! O: ahoy ! . so anyways , English lesson went pretty slow. though , i did less work. cbf. lunchtime was alright , because i was with my joshayee♥ . so anywho , after lunch was cst , again. my normal teacher is absent , due to her being very ill. get well soon miss ! so you can come back and teach us . cause the teacher we have now is such a fucking bitch. (F) – umm art was alright , we did an introduction on our new unit , on clay. (: it was only about like waht we knew about it , and all those other shit. i was still pretty hyped (:

then around maths time , i had the craves for ice coffeee *extreme drool* – then at lunch i got ice`coffee -smiles- it was a very good moment of my day. due to being able to desire myself with ice coffee [: -winks- lunch time i jst sat around , like i always do ; i feel like running around though , just no-one to run around with. my other 2 subjects of the day was pretty boring. i did nothing but sit around and talk , because im rebeled. ahaha no way , (: - garbo was alright , it was good actually because i was with my joshaye♥ -giggles- and then left , becaue he had to go homes ; hmm , did i mention that the clouds were overtaking the sky today ? ; like its absolutely grey. no blue`ness in the sky , this afternoon ; strange? and now its raining (: . yayer ! good sleep tnight ! ;]  ; hopefully it isnt raining tomorrows , or else i`ll cry RAGE. hopefully the teachers have a wonderful time at their strike parade [:

when i got home , i went straight to the shower ; i didnt wanna shower to late , due to being sick D: , seriously dont want that. ; i didnt know what to do , and so i decided to watch drama’s and is still watching drama (: . a very sad moment of time ; and then i called my boyfriend , ♥ and talked to him for like 2hours & 4 minutes . then i told him to go shower because it was getting late ! D: . omg i had a massive craving for ice’cream today . -shakeshead- but i didnt get ice`cream though .. how sad ; i get to see my boyfriend tomorrows ! (: yayayayayay ! ♥

and that was basically my whole day , i didnt do anything really. ♥

&

happy seventh month paris lay♥

stronger and stronger ;

happy three months baby ♥ ;

so where can i start ? , but say im very glad that i have him in my life. he means everything to me , like literally. without him , i`ll feel emptiness for sure.because his a very huge part of my life. his very essential to me (: . i felt so excited , knowing that it was my third month with him ! [: . hope`ing i’ll be with him for a long time. omg i cant say anything else but tell him that i love him very much (= . aaaah talking about him makes me miss him (U) babee , i love you oh so very much (: . thank you for everything , your not just my boyfriend ; not your so much more .. your also my , bestfriend ; my supporter , my lover (: your basically everything i need. i cant ask for anything else (: . because i got it all. you’re one amazing guy . that is above all the rest of the guys . i feel that when im with you , i dont need anything else. your trustworthy. i could leave my life to you ..♥

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iloveyoujoshua. (L)

” even if the sun refuse to shine ,

even if romance ran out of rhyme , you’ll still have

my heart.

until the end of time

your all i need , my love my valentine ” ♥

- – - – - – - – - -  ;

That You, were the one that made me strong;
you made me stand up on my own,
with every cruel intention, you helped me find my
independence.
yeah it’s all because of you,
that i have the strength i do,
to turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin’.
Boy i’m thankin‘ you.♬

♥

“ your the reason that the sun shines ,

the reason for no gray clouds ” ♥ -

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so i woke up at like about 10 something , because my boyfriend had texted me saying , good morning (: . and then i didnt feel like sleeping anymores , and so i layed their texting my beloved girlfriend boyfriend. telling him my dreams etc . it was around like 11 till i actually got up and did something , because i was going out today (: . with my parents (H) aw gg. and so i got ready , and then left. before i left though , i burned a CD ; so i can listen to my new songs in the car (: (H) . then left to go out. we went to chinatown , like always ! . i swear my parents loves going to that place aye .. like everytime we go out , they always take me to fucking chinatown. i’m not saying its bad or anything , it was actually good. because i bought stuff today (: . i bought , 2 scarfs , a winter hat , long socks and a bag (: . aah huhs ! it was good finally got something , haha. i’m glad. anyways we went to a resturant to eat. and like i was getting

angry because i was like super hungry , but like they were taking forever.. =.=” and anyways after eating , i felt good and full it was a very good feeling (: since i was like so hungry and shit all. then we went to the thai movie place (: and got drama’s ! yayer♥ finally.and so i was happy (: and couldnt wait to like get home , because like yeah you know , that feeling (: ! and like yeah , the ride home was ohkays ; my sister kept laughing ! D: , and i was getting annoyed , she was also pulling my hair </3 that faggot. so anyways , when i got home , i felt hungry again ; and so my mum made food. and in that meanwhile , i tried on my new winter clothe`ing and took pictures (: . so eniwaaays after that i ate (; and txted my boyfriend . hahas -

so anyways , that was about it , i didnt do much today but those stuff. and im missing my boyfriend terribly </3 .. wish i could see hims . AND OMFG tomorrow is my 3rd month -giggles- so very excited ! . im like bored nows , well not really [: cause i`m watching drama’s -giggles- si anyywaaaay. i has nothing else to say , but how much i miss josh.. (U) i’ll just leave it to that (: cyaaah. i feel like a shower nows , and i feel like eating . but i cant be stuffed. but neh , i think im going to make a new header for my wordpress site (: , since its like old nows , and its getting boring hahas . ; I MISS JOSHUA D:

___________ciao ;

♪ i try to run from your side..

but each place i hide ,

it only reminds me of youu ..

even the nights ,

it only reminds me of you ..♪

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it started of as a terrible dream.. a dream that you woudnt wanna have. or even thinking about it all happening in reality. luckily it did not happen in reality. which is a great sign for me. if it did happen in reality , i’ll constantly suffocate and die. so claps for it not happening (: . so anyways , my dream was terrible. i do not even wanna talk about it. i wont mention waht i dreamt about.. just makes me more scared. because i love my boyfriend quite alot ♥ ; so anywayys. for some reason , the alarm didnt go off today. it was so very unusal , i was like wtf. the dream took my sleeping time over the limit </3 . i like woke up , and looked @ the clock right , and it was only 7:02am plenty of sleep i has left till its 7:20 but no , i slept till fucking 7:59am.. gg to my life. i was extremely late. i got ready as fast as i could , and rushed to the bustop.. and realised that i missed the fucking 8:30 bus.. or it just didnt come , FML ; and so i had to wait until 9:00 until the bus came , and thats when school started.. T_T i was like omfg.. i’m dead. i got to school @ like 10 , or nearly 10 or someshit. and rushed to maths. it felt so wierd. when i was like walking into to the room , everyone was like starring i was like “wtff..” -smiles- haha. im to nice ;D and so anyways , lunch time was unusal aswell..

oh lillian loves me ;D

one of my friends came to hang with me today ; when she doesnt usually do O: , i was extremely suprised & happy (: the other reason for my happiness was , i was with my boyfriend as well ! [: ♥ it felt very warming -giggles- dude. it wasnt that cold today.. maybe it was because i was running , and pissed haha.what a life . so eniways , after morning tea i has IWS . so fucking lame. the teacher is such a bitch , me and mandala hates her big ass. [: and i accidently stood on her foot today D= i felt bad , but stuff her :] im totally kidding. haha ; then i had art (: ! and finished my art piece -giggles- ! and on monday i can frame it ['; then i`m absolutely done :] . lunch time was alright , i didnt do much ; but sit around with chung & my boyfriend♥ (: then had hpe. omfg.. most painfullest lesson ever..i offically hate volleyball! (U) ; it hurts me so much .. and i had to serve the fucking ball alot.. STUPID FUCKING BALL  -stabs- its painful everyone.. i swear it is T_T ; my boyfriend said i was faking.. </3 when i was actually in paaaaaaaain like like like , my vained popped or something D= ! the most hurtfullest shit on earth , ( not really ) but yeah you know ! D: . i felt like screaming , like you know ? ; i just wanted to rage and punch my cst teacher. -looks around- kaaay. after hpe was cst. we didnt do much work , but continued on our exploring kar2touche.. it was boring T_T i`m over it nows ! it sucks ! – hmph- so much for , learning HAHA. and so , i sat around and mucked around with the programm [: -

garbo wasnt a very pleasant moment.. i also wont mention what happened , but it wasnt a happy moment of a friday afternoon. i'm over it nows , everythings fine (: and yeahh . i`m still getting upset over lil things , this is all because of my .. ANYWAYS ! ROFL . blame it on that , blame it on that ! -smiles- i caught the 4:32 bus today , since i had no one to hang with @ garbo. and got home around like 4:55pm , my parents wasnt even home T_T . and so i came on msn .. and around like 7 or something , i got extremely bored , and decided to take pictures with my webcam [: im so cool. and like yeah , then i got bored of it ; and it was like tiring me.. and then i got hungry . and so i went to eat food. felt super full and came back on to edit the pics. & was also texting my beloved boyfriend ♥ and then i felt hungry again ! and so i went to eat . because i was hungry again . and like yeaaah.

and that was basically all that i did , its lke 12:30am everyone , good morning sunshine (: . uhms my boyfriend fell asleep like an hour ago (: . i wonder what his dreaming about ; roflroflroflrofl. everyone went to sleep so early i swear. i'm like non-tired T__T . well i think i am tired , im just to lazy to sleep ; you know you know ? weekends are finally here (: . and today is 160509. which means .. that tomorrow (sunday) is me and my boyfriends 3rd month !♥ yayer. i'm so excited i could run into the wall and still smile [: . omg did you know that , i love my boyfriend? (: . did i mention that to you ? ; WELL I HAVE ! , i remember now =D . omg i feel like sushi , i had sushi afterschool today (: - yumyum♥ ohyehs , i downloaded new songs (: their very good =] ! and so i has many favourite melody’s atm. uhms , my phone is like pissing me off . but that doesnt matter , because my phone was alwaysa  fagget ! – stabs- anywayys.. its so fucking cold atm .. and i miss josh (U) hmms, i wonder what im doing today (: . i heard my parents say shopping AW GREAT T_T .. shopping borings me. unless its shopping about something i really want [: -giggles- i has a stomache D: ! .. i sink i ate to much   – or my stomach is just being a bitch. so anywaaay.. i need to sleep , i swear i has to sleep ; i admit im tired nows , but i dont feel like sleeping ? D= i`m seriously confused. but thats how i feel , like you know ? and so i get bored , and blabber on about shit haha. i’m so unique . -coughs- i’m freezing like a bitch (U) .. i need my joshua.. (L)

goodnight readers _____;♥